Christians To The Lions.

i wonder why i hate christians.
nay, i cant say that.
i have christian friends, so i cant possibly hate ALL christians.
well...
the most accurate way of me putting it is i hate christian zealots who are devoted to the church, that it becomes a major part of their social life. especially if they are fanatically enthusiastic and evangelistic.

whew, that was a mouthful.
well, i still wonder why i hate them.

izzit because of chit ming?
he's fast becoming one of those types.
he's effectively given up his friends in favour of his church friends.
not in the way of attending services.
that'd be understandable.
in favour of socialising with them.

nay, i didnt really like jesus freaks before he was christian, so he only served to reinforce my hatred.

izzit because of my mum?
desperately clinging to an empty faith in a god that has obviously forsaken the world?
her blind faith and devotion curdles my guts.
i am a very rational person.
if there is a god, where are the unexplainable events that can be attributed to him?
christians may say that i am surrounded by them, that i am surrounded by the miracles of his creation.
i say that is a grave insult to the countless workers who toiled to build these buildings for a pittance.
and also,
i cite occam's razor.
no more entities should be presumed to exist than absolutely neccesary.
and also, as for the creation of the universe,
according to the laws of probability, they would have occured sooner or later.
an infinite number of monkeys at infinite typewriters would surely produce the entirety of shakespeare's works.

maybe it is a contributing factor.
that the times where she, time and again, has clung stubbornly to her god only to be disappointed.
have only served to prove to me the futility of blind faith.

izzit... my own experience at church?
i attended church for 4 years.
during that time i wasnt actively shunned.
but i certainly wasnt very welcome either.
ah but then again i wasnt exactly welcome anywhere then.

possibly, because i was kinda a social outcast. so my distaste could stem from being shunned.

nay.
i say its a potent mix.
a strange cocktail of factors leading to my hatred.
i shall break them down to dissect my emotions.
what exactly do i hate about christians?

1) Homogenity
they all seem to have a hivemind like mentality. they all behave and think the same way.
its like a fucking cult.
and i dont mean in a good way.
unity is strength, but where is strength when it is surrounded by stupidity?

2) Strong, unwavering faith
even when comfronted with questions they cannot answer, they still stay convicted of their belief in their idol.
faith is good, but what if you're wrong all along?
what if there is no god?
or what if you're following the wrong one?

3) intolerance.
they are socially intolerant towards those who aren't mainstream.
i dont mean every christian is like that, but from my personal experience, church culture is like that.

4) Unquestioning nature.
have never thought about the feasability of such a "god"
i have, and its entirely possible.
what if god is but a bbeing from a higher dimension?
after all, sufficiently advanced technology would seem like miracles to the unknowing.

so guess what?
i still dont know why.
i certainly do hate church culture.
not christianity.
maybe i hate ORGANISED religion.
maybe.

Skalds And Shadows, by blind guardian

Do not fear for my reason
There's nothing to hide
How bitter your treason
How bitter the lie
Remember the runes and remember the light
All I ever want is to be at your side
We gladden the raven
Now I will run through the blazing fires
That's my choice
'Cause things shall procede as foreseen