there's a difference between training hard and being obsessive. im nt the only 1 who thinks so. you've left behind the rest of BL.
you train harder because you leave everything else behind to do something.
u got injured permanently.
pray tell me, what is the relevance to this situation?
it only shows that you dont fall well.

And as for the newbies, sure they look up to you.
i never said they, or anyone at all, should look up to me.
i admit im probably the most deplorable of characters.
in many ways, and i've said so before, you are my better.
i know im lazy.
thats not my only fault.
im also a slower learner.
thats why i got all Ds this sem and some1 got better.

and as for training?
if we had them at night i'd be down all the time, innit?
to put it this way.
if i kept NORMAL hours like every1 else, i'd be there too.
i dont sleep as much as you think.
in terms of hours i dont sleep more than you.
in fact, i only sleep 7 or 8 hours daily, just that i sleep and wake up later.
i certainly don't "only slough through the night"
i just do more nocturnal stuff.
i more or less only reach home at 12++.
its now 12 45.
i've just reached home and william's at my house.
even if i wanted to sleep early it'd be 3 or so.
we have different lifestyles, as you may have noticed.
i think its not bad for some1 who only goes out after 7 or so.

And i dont drink like dunno what.
as you have said, you drink more than me.
and more frequently at that.
i seldom drink, amazingly.
but the times i do i drink 1 or 2 bottles.
i really enjoy drinking.
whats wrong with that?
i havent gotten drunk in over half a year.
i think i deserve some credit for that.

no, i'm not suggesting who would be a better model.
character wise, you're no role model either.
none of us are.

as for dance, im nt gonna comment bcos it isnt my area anymore. i wash my hands of it and thats final.
yes, weng tat and wilson are pursueing different things in dance too.
but who's talking about dance.
weng tat and wilson are similar to you, character wise.
weng tat less so than wilson.

and yes i dun think bout the consequences.
i sometimes, albeit rarely, make logical decisions.
its just that i consider the options every1 considers to be absurd.

i dun see any bright future for my life either, partially because for me future means 1 week or so.
thats why i dont care about the consequences, because for me the consequences arent much better than the results.

as for nic, which idiot puts his face his close to the bbq pit.
if he got burnt, he only would've himself to blame.
we're just lucky?
its this kinda luck that gets me through life.

maybe i always think in a radical way.
why dont you all consider the possibilities before dismissing something?
maybe the straight and narrow path may not be always the best?

its not that you are boring.
.
.
.
ok maybe im half-lying here.

and i dont think up of stuff that only i will do.
im the only 1 open minded enough to even consider it.
and no, im nt the only 1 who would do it.
you shouldnt dismiss something without first trying it, or at least considering it.

and yeah, you're right. i dun mind getting my ass kicked. i dun mind getting into trouble.
no quibbles here, because i dont exactly give a fuck.

and yes, i changed. we all know that.
it isnt exactly an open secret that im nt the same selwyn i was 2 years ago.
i dare to be different.
i dare to try stuff that you wont even think about.
im no longer simply another fucking sheep.

we're mentally from different generations.
my mindset's that of generation x.
question authority.
dont accept blindly.
yours?
generation y.
y, as in "why ask why?"
simply too bochap to question.
you just accept your lot in life and do nothing but conform.
put it this way.
if some1 dared you to turn up for school in some costume, would you?
im sure you wouldnt.
as for me, not only would i, im already planning to.
why am i doing it?
just for kicks.
it doesnt do any1 harm, it just makes every1 laugh.
why NOT?

have i changed for the better or for the worse?
good question.
ur nt the only1 to ask.
even i myself have thought about this.

my mind now... is more open.
i now dare to question ppl and to stand up for whats due to me.
thats the difference.
im no longer a porch monkey, k?
put it this way.
is sentience a blessing or a curse?
would u rather be blissfully ignorant or aware?
wait.
i dont expect you to ask that since ur blissfully unaware.

as for goin back to training?
wen fu's called every1 hopeless b4.
even mikhail.
we all know he's better than you.
wen fu's said that you didnt have the persistence to train before, too.
we all know thats just the way he talks.

as yao de said b4, if u were my fren u would've harmed me in the short term for the long term good.
it doesnt really matter, for that.

you know what impression i'll always have of the crew?
i'll always rmb 1 line ervin said to me.
i couldnt answer that line.
its the kind of line that really...
cant be answered.
it was.
"but must suit the majority".

its this kind of people that brought the nazis to power.
conformists.
why do you think hitler rounded up the anarchists?
because they dared to speak up.

why do you just accept things blindly?
why do you accept things the way they are?
there is no topic not open to questioning.
aesthetics.
morality.
your sexual orientation.
you dont even have to think in sense.
its all hypothetical enquiry.
lunatics like me formed the basis of modern science and philosophy.
archimedes.
plato.
galileo.
da vinci.
descartes.
they were all inquirers.
i think, therefore i am.