Why?

Why is it that people who don't deserve to die, die only too quickly.
Why do assholes who deserve to die and ROT IN HELL just don't.
They're like cockroaches.
you just can't smash me out.

i'm now blasting sweet child of mine.
over and over again.
reminds me of another day last year.
if im not wrong it was november.

the solo reminds me of jimi.
jimi hendrix.
the distortion is in his style, like from the song voodoo child...
seriously?
most of his lyrics are shit.
but his guitar?
you can just feel it.

yesterday i went to beach road lah.
and i passed by a shop selling knives.
i tell you those knives were just beautiful.
if i wasnt so broke i would've bought the shop.
seriously, some are just so fucking beautiful.
and some...
you can just tell that they're made to kill.
i gotta buy some of those.
take a look.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Balisong_%28knife%29

this is a traditional filipino switchblade known as a balisong.
its balanced beautifully and can be drawn with 1 hand by flipping the handle around.
its a kind of gravity knife.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ernest_Emerson

and take a look at this guy.
knife manufacturer.
if you're too lazy, dont read.
but look at the pictures.
they're bloody beautiful.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Navaja
this is one of the most elegant knives i've seen.
its a spanish knife, specifically designed in seville.
there are also french deriviations.
to wield it is just... beauty.
reminds me of a story i heard about it.
a man noticed the word inox on his blade and thought it was the manufacturer's locale.
he asked a spaniard where was inox.
guess what?
inox just means stainless steel.
LOL!

http://www.designobserver.com/archives/shiv1.html
take a look at these.
prison knives.
they arent beautiful and probably arent well balanced.
but they're just so...
ingenious.

seriously, if i had the cash i'd collect knives.
all sorts of knives from around the world.
knives are just so beautiful.
its actually a history of combat.
i'd like to have a whole rack of knives on my wall.
when i'm bored i could make a detailed study of the minutae and the individula details on the knife.
like why is the blade black?
to avoid reflecting light and revealing your presence.
stuff like that.
its bloody interesting, i guarantee you.
and its one of the few things i like about japan.

Heaven And Hell, by black sabbath

They say that lifes a carousel
Spinning fast, youve got to ride it well
The world is full of kings and queens
Who blind your eyes and steal your dreams
Its heaven and hell

Hey, Mrs Cleaver! How's the Beaver?

as for you falling...
well, lets just call it an accident and leave it as that. honestly, this point isnt really relevant here so lets drop it here.

and about the glove? its not just about practicality. its about respect. its disrespectful to the band to wear stuff with their logo while you dont know anything about them. its poser-ish, k? like if you wear a carlsberg t shirt you're saying you like drinking carlsberg. if you dont you're just a poser and people are gonna just laugh at you.

and about hi cuts? really HUH? i've never worn high cuts before so i've no idea where you got that from.

and no, i'm not aiming just you. i'm aiming all superficial posers who just ignorantly wear something because its cool or it looks nice or something stupid like that. why do you think i rip on ccl all the time for wearing that a7x hoodie? i keep telling him to pass it to wiilliam, who actually listens to a7x. william, not me. because i dun listen to a7x either.

and you may not know, but why not trying to tell the police that you didnt know killing was wrong. ignorance is never an excuse.

oh yeah. dont think i dont dream. i've always wished for a world of like minded people like me. where weirdness is the norm. and no, i dont try to be different. name 1 example of me doing so, and i shall refute it.

Generation.

youths nowadays are a boring lot.
i'm sick of how they just seem to follow the crowd.
they dont dare to be different, for fear of "losing face".
in a way they're mentally restricting themselves.
they're putting invisible boundaries between themselves and what they want to do.
they dont dare to try new things for fear of being ridiculed.
in a way they're enforcing conformity within their own sociial group.
thats the difference between me and you.
thats the reason why punk is mostly dead.
people used to define non conformity as not following the norms of the mainstream groups.
now?
you're apparently a non conformist if you dress, behave, think and act exactly like every other self-proclaimed rebel there is.
but i wouldnt expect someone who OWNS A FALL OUT BOY T SHIRT to understand that.
you dont even understand why metalheads care so much about band t shirts.
if you wear a t shirt, its a show of support for the ideals on it.
it shows that you're proud to support it.
thats why i kicked up such a fuss about your FALL OUT BOY t shirts.
technically and lyrically, fall out boy have absolutely no talent whatsoever.

lets take a look at some of my t shirts.

black sabbath
motorhead.
the clash

very great bands which i actually listen to and support.
unlike the posers who wear vintage band t shirts just because they're vintage and look cool.
unlike some poser who wears an acdc glove, but has never heard of the band.

and lemme define conformity as it relates to you.

intolerance of things that are out of the ordinary. (everytime one of you call me crazy)
fear of being seen as out of the ordinary. (everytime wilson says For what?)
fear of doing things not done by others.(ditto)
apathy towards things that do not directly affect yourself, just like every other mainstream youth.

which is, sadly, the mentality of more or less every1.
as ervin said, "must suit the majority".
famous words, for which i'll always remember as exemplifying the mindset of every single clone.

Help Myanmar.

Myanmar is ruled by one of the most few remaining military dictatorships in the world. For decades the Burmese regime has fended off the voices demanding truth, freedom and democracy.
They have imprisoned such voices calling for freedom such as Aung San Suu Kyi. they have forced thousands in the provinces into forced labour in refugee camps.

Last Tuesday monks and nuns began marching and chanting prayers. They are leading the voices of freedom against their authoritarian regime. The protests spread—now they're growing by tens of thousands every day, as the people of Myanmar demand change. The Buddhist monks and nuns are the only ones numerous and influential enough to unite the people to boldly ask for freedom. You spend your life politically silent by choice. They yearn for a voice, but do not have the chance to speak. If you do not care about political expression, at least give them the chance for a voice.

The protestors grow more and more everyday as the people of Myanmar begin to demand change. They can win freedom for their country. Let this not end up like Tian An Men Square. This eerily reminds me of Pol Pot's regime. In the past military juntas have massacred demonstrators and crushed democracy. They are just asking for freedom. A basic human right. The right to choose. This time it can be different. But only if the world stands with Myanmar. I'm not asking you to take up arms. Just sign this petition to show your support.

https://secure.avaaz.org/act/index.php?r=act_signup&cid=114&lang=en&cl=20067965

there's a difference between training hard and being obsessive. im nt the only 1 who thinks so. you've left behind the rest of BL.
you train harder because you leave everything else behind to do something.
u got injured permanently.
pray tell me, what is the relevance to this situation?
it only shows that you dont fall well.

And as for the newbies, sure they look up to you.
i never said they, or anyone at all, should look up to me.
i admit im probably the most deplorable of characters.
in many ways, and i've said so before, you are my better.
i know im lazy.
thats not my only fault.
im also a slower learner.
thats why i got all Ds this sem and some1 got better.

and as for training?
if we had them at night i'd be down all the time, innit?
to put it this way.
if i kept NORMAL hours like every1 else, i'd be there too.
i dont sleep as much as you think.
in terms of hours i dont sleep more than you.
in fact, i only sleep 7 or 8 hours daily, just that i sleep and wake up later.
i certainly don't "only slough through the night"
i just do more nocturnal stuff.
i more or less only reach home at 12++.
its now 12 45.
i've just reached home and william's at my house.
even if i wanted to sleep early it'd be 3 or so.
we have different lifestyles, as you may have noticed.
i think its not bad for some1 who only goes out after 7 or so.

And i dont drink like dunno what.
as you have said, you drink more than me.
and more frequently at that.
i seldom drink, amazingly.
but the times i do i drink 1 or 2 bottles.
i really enjoy drinking.
whats wrong with that?
i havent gotten drunk in over half a year.
i think i deserve some credit for that.

no, i'm not suggesting who would be a better model.
character wise, you're no role model either.
none of us are.

as for dance, im nt gonna comment bcos it isnt my area anymore. i wash my hands of it and thats final.
yes, weng tat and wilson are pursueing different things in dance too.
but who's talking about dance.
weng tat and wilson are similar to you, character wise.
weng tat less so than wilson.

and yes i dun think bout the consequences.
i sometimes, albeit rarely, make logical decisions.
its just that i consider the options every1 considers to be absurd.

i dun see any bright future for my life either, partially because for me future means 1 week or so.
thats why i dont care about the consequences, because for me the consequences arent much better than the results.

as for nic, which idiot puts his face his close to the bbq pit.
if he got burnt, he only would've himself to blame.
we're just lucky?
its this kinda luck that gets me through life.

maybe i always think in a radical way.
why dont you all consider the possibilities before dismissing something?
maybe the straight and narrow path may not be always the best?

its not that you are boring.
.
.
.
ok maybe im half-lying here.

and i dont think up of stuff that only i will do.
im the only 1 open minded enough to even consider it.
and no, im nt the only 1 who would do it.
you shouldnt dismiss something without first trying it, or at least considering it.

and yeah, you're right. i dun mind getting my ass kicked. i dun mind getting into trouble.
no quibbles here, because i dont exactly give a fuck.

and yes, i changed. we all know that.
it isnt exactly an open secret that im nt the same selwyn i was 2 years ago.
i dare to be different.
i dare to try stuff that you wont even think about.
im no longer simply another fucking sheep.

we're mentally from different generations.
my mindset's that of generation x.
question authority.
dont accept blindly.
yours?
generation y.
y, as in "why ask why?"
simply too bochap to question.
you just accept your lot in life and do nothing but conform.
put it this way.
if some1 dared you to turn up for school in some costume, would you?
im sure you wouldnt.
as for me, not only would i, im already planning to.
why am i doing it?
just for kicks.
it doesnt do any1 harm, it just makes every1 laugh.
why NOT?

have i changed for the better or for the worse?
good question.
ur nt the only1 to ask.
even i myself have thought about this.

my mind now... is more open.
i now dare to question ppl and to stand up for whats due to me.
thats the difference.
im no longer a porch monkey, k?
put it this way.
is sentience a blessing or a curse?
would u rather be blissfully ignorant or aware?
wait.
i dont expect you to ask that since ur blissfully unaware.

as for goin back to training?
wen fu's called every1 hopeless b4.
even mikhail.
we all know he's better than you.
wen fu's said that you didnt have the persistence to train before, too.
we all know thats just the way he talks.

as yao de said b4, if u were my fren u would've harmed me in the short term for the long term good.
it doesnt really matter, for that.

you know what impression i'll always have of the crew?
i'll always rmb 1 line ervin said to me.
i couldnt answer that line.
its the kind of line that really...
cant be answered.
it was.
"but must suit the majority".

its this kind of people that brought the nazis to power.
conformists.
why do you think hitler rounded up the anarchists?
because they dared to speak up.

why do you just accept things blindly?
why do you accept things the way they are?
there is no topic not open to questioning.
aesthetics.
morality.
your sexual orientation.
you dont even have to think in sense.
its all hypothetical enquiry.
lunatics like me formed the basis of modern science and philosophy.
archimedes.
plato.
galileo.
da vinci.
descartes.
they were all inquirers.
i think, therefore i am.

Goodbye, strangerS.

after the chalet i also got a different view point.
yep, i'm affecting the crew.
we all are. especially you.
especially when you're grooming acolytes all over the place.
notice the new guys are all heading off in the same direction as you?
you're their bloody role model, innit?

maybe i have an analytical point of view.
maybe thats not a good thing.
maybe its a bad thing that i actually think.
it makes life so much more complicated.
all i know is that i'd rather be like this than a shallow conformist like YOU and more or less every1 you hang with.

and yeah, i never learn my lessons.
and i have absolutely no regard to consequences.
if i did i'd be living in fear.
its kinda boring to keep thinking what if, you know.

and to the exploding pit, if some1's injured i would still have laughed.
if the injury's just superficial like cuts or anything like that i still would've laughed.
and anyway you talk like i dont bloody know what im talking abt, innit?
i got caught in a gas explosion b4.
i got burnt, i learnt my lesson.
think before playing.
the bbq pit was in such an open area.
it was highly unlikely that any explosion would've done much damage.

and anyway, yeah. peter got fined. big fuck.
i would've paid too if he mentioned it.
i dont mind splitting the cost.
instead of him acting big and paying all
THEN griping about it and sulking like a OVERGROWN KID.
i used to be nice to him.
not anymore.

u think i should stop bboyin. i think you're right.
so i guess this is buh-bye.
not a sorry 1 either.
what's my niche area in the crew?
nothing.
im the guy who falls nicely.
and yeah, as for suicides?
i grasped it initially.
but after a while my falls grew softer.
less audible.
so yeah, i kinda lost it.
to put it that way, i kinda lost it.

oh yah.
as for sparring?
didnt sum1 fall down when kicking me?
honestly, i could take you if i managed to get close.
you'd be dead.
you all only thought within the rules.
im nt another fucking sheep.
wen fu always scolded me for thinking outside the rules.
i nv thought of sparring in a san shou context.
i approached it mentally in a mma context.
you know it.
every1 does.
san shou rules favour strikers.
mma rules would've favoured me.
which is why i enjoyed training with ed, don and the other guy who carried me with 1 arm.

oh yeah.
you're not without your faults either.
you cant stick to stuff.
you give up halfway.
thats why im going back to train and ur not.

where do i go now?
where i've always belonged.
heavy. fuckin'. metal.
let's go, willie.
forever carry on.

Carry On, by Manowar

Carry on, my sons forever
Carry on, when I am gone
Carry on, when the day is long
Forever carry on
For as long as we're together
Then forever carry on.

Die!!!!!

its kinda bloody irritating when the guys dont reply their e mail even after they get prompted.
seriously, im thinking of just dropping the idea in the first place.
just drop the idea of wilson and just go hang with the guys.
whoever who wants to come.
either that or cancel.
i've said it before.
i rmb getting flamed for saying,
but i'll say it again.
bl is falling apart.
yep, i rmb i was the first to say it out loud.
yuxuan said i was the 1 falling apart.
maybe he was right, maybe not.
but i was definitely right.
maybe we shld start booting the inactive ppl.

Other Bands Play...

Chalet was...
it wasn't a very fun chalet, as chalets go.
but it was fine lah...
can pass type.
it just showed me the difference between every1 and me though.

maybe i'm too radical?
too... unstable?
i'd do more or less anything for a laugh.

take it as an example.
breaking into wild wild wet.
my idea of a laugh.
i'd do it just to fuck around inside and take some really cool pics.

and oh yeah.
our bbq pit exploded.
we got fined, of course.
i thought it was fucking hilarious.
seriously.
i wish i'd seen it explode.
i'd have been all like...
"OMFG RUN FOR COVER... hey cool can we do it again LOL!"

seriously?
i'm all like...
damn the consequences.
lets do it.
it'll be fucking hilarious.
i'm kinda the devil's advocate, in a way.

seriously,
i feel kinda stifled when i'm always with people who are more... normal.
normal, yeah.
but the chalet was less than that.
they were so square that it was kinda boring sometimes.

ah well.
maybe i'm crazy.
i don't mind being diagnosed insane.
it'd gimme licence to go off the wall on every1.
i mean...
every1 already thinks i'm crazy.
maybe i should get it formally diagnosed.
reap all the benefits of insanity due to me.

i've already gotten the drawbacks.
no1 takes me seriously at all.
every1 thinks i'm just joking.
like i'm just saying.
maybe 1 day i'll go loco and laugh it up.
killing with a smile.
i'd go slaughter every1 just for a laugh.

maybe i'm the only 1 who sees the lighter side of things.
when we heard the bbq pit exploded,
the first thing yuxuan thought of was the consequences.
exploding peter.
the first thing i thought was to laugh.

seriously, the crew is kinda square, but peter takes the cake.
if i was yuxuan i'd have told him to shut the fuck up.
its not like we can turn back time, so we mise well have a laugh at it, innit?

ah well.
i probably wont be seeing much of peter anymore, so it doesnt really matter.
seriously, if he wasn't so overwhelmingly boring i'd be nicer to him.

Are You Dead Yet?, By Children Of Bodom

Don't hear, don't deem
Drowning before you dive
Don't care, commit
To your self destruction drive
I kiss the ground
With love beyond forever
Flip off the sky
With bleeding fingers till I die

its death metal.
its not bad.
im listening to them now.
they're quite good.

Crossroads: Turn Left//Turn Right?

i don't know where to go now.
i'm seriously thinking about stopping bboying.
nowadays sundays seem just like i'm just going through the motions again.
and again.
and again.

i'm not sure but maybe its something to do with the direction in which the crew is,
and has been for quite a while, going towards.
honestly?
i've never like the beats you guys played.
personally, i feel that electronic beats are bland and overproduced.
and also, i just don't feel it.
worse still if the beat is stolen from a classic song.
i absolutely REFUSE to listen to it.
i start playing air guitar when i hear that prepare for the battle shit.
its totally stolen from eye of the tiger.
electronic beats just aren't my idea of a beat.

yeah i remember once where i heard a catchy beat.
just my type: old school and kinda funky.
sparsely produced.
i remember exactly what ervin said when i wanted him to change back to that song for my throw in the cipher.
"but must suit the majority what"
Conformity.
He REEKS of it.
I didn't understand.
just for my throw, and you guys could've switched back np.
thinking that it'd kill your flow?
well, about my flow?
you guys have been killing it softly with your sound.
either way you guys are more or less just following yuxuan's sound.
its always his beats spinning.
so you all listen to them too.
why not try something new in the first place?

in the first place bboying was never representative for me in the first place.
i can't show my emotions through it.
as i recall,
i once said that bboying for me is only when i'm happy and i'm feeling the beat.
peter said that i shouldn't go with my emotions.
well, doesn't that mean i shouldn't be myself?
if i'm sad, i'm sad.
i'm pissed, i'm pissed.
seriously.
metal is so much more representative of my emotions.
me listening to metal is like a kid running into a candy shop.
so many flavours to enjoy.
metal more or less suits my every mood.
all along, i listen to metal when i'm feeling emotional.

i feel sad?
Glam Metal Ballads, like Poison or GnR
i feel angry?
Thrash Metal, like Metallica or Slayer.
i feel murderous?
Death Metal/Black Metal, like Amon Amarth or Dimmu Borgir.
i feel despondent?
Power Metal/Epic Metal, like Queensryche or Manowar.

You get the gist.
either way, i'm not really feeling it anymore.

i've quarreled with most people in the crew before, over various issues.
i remember when we first started out.
we were quite close.
perhaps out of necessity, as the crew was quite small.
now?
its kinda...
we're more or less once a week hi-bye friends.
we train together
(for me, more or less without a single word)
sometimes we have lunch
(sometimes. but always without ppl like ervin and zen.)
we more or less don't hang outside of training.
i tried suggesting before, but nothing happens.
maybe its a clique-ish thing and i'm out of sync.
if i wanted to, i really could break into the cult of yuxuan-ism
(that's just a joke, not a statement, btw.)
but in doing so i wouldn't be being true to myself, innit?

maybe i'm a loner by choice.
i won't talk to any1 unless i'm either close to them or they talk to me first.
i'd rather sit and be by myself.
i love the comfortable silence that arises from familiarity.
the type when you know someone so well that you don't have to talk.
you already know what's going on.
no, i'm not a dreamer.
its like that with william, for me.
we talk, but once in a while we don't even have to.
we just sit there and keep each other company.

whichever way you spin it, i've changed.
ever since i entered poly.
i used to be a wild lout.
now?
i'm mentally from a different generation.
god bless the day i found the sex pistols, as that was the day in which the seeds of inquisitiveness were planted in me.
i'm from generation x.
the "why?" generation.
you guys are from generation y.
y, meaning "why ask why".
like wilson's ubiquitous answer, which i absolutely hate, "for what?"
its always "huh? for what?"
i hate that answer.
its not like i'd ask you to do something which requires much of an explanation.
i ask you guys to do stuff like have dinner, or meet up to chill.
even if you asked me seriously, i wouldn't be able to give an answer.
stuff like this shouldn't need one.

mentally, i'm very different from the crew.
or most people of our generation.
i lack apathy.

maybe i'm losing inspiration.
maybe i just need another shot of it.
i've always said that something you're engaged in is never just that.
more often than not, its a lifestyle.
i don't know.
if i have to place effort into cultivating something then i'm definitely not living it.
maybe its because i'm alone in my interest?
if i had a buddy who i could share my interest in old school raps with maybe i would be more enthusiastic about it.
just like now i'm getting into wider subgenres of metal, because i usually hang with metalheads in school.
stuff like that.

honestly i'm hoping that no matter what this is,
it'll all blow over after the crew chalet.
i'm hoping that the chalet will help me bond with the other crew members.
thats why i kept stressing that we should all stick more or less together during the chalet.
and also why i kept wanting more beer.
too little to get drunk, but enough to keep the conversation flowing.
i don't know.
maybe this is a last ditch effort.
maybe i'm missing out on the social aspect of being a bboy.
i'm giving this 1 last try, perhaps.
only time will tell how.

Are You Dead Yet, by children of bodom.

Enemy, take one good look at me
Eradicate what you will always be
Tainted flesh, polluted soul
Through a mirror I behold
Throw a punch
Shards bleed on the floor
Tearing me apart but
I don't care anymore
Should I regret or ask myself
Are you dead yet?

Is BLANK BLANK Metal?

yeah i'll talk about a certain topic, and discuss whether their relation to metal, or a subgenre of it.

1) is Helloween power metal?

many people think helloween is power metal.
based solely on the way they play, i'm quite sure any1 would be inclined to agree.
however, they aren't like most other power metal bands lyrically.
the most common "image" for power metal bands is.

epic, medieval imagery. for example, dragons knights and such.
tight leather pants and a tight band t shirt, with long hair.

based on this, helloween don't seem very power metal.
take a look at a sample lyric.

The Power Of Thy Sword, By Manowar (An established Power Metal band.)

The clash of honor calls
I will stand when others fall
Open magic doors
The will know the power of my sword

March Of Time, By Helloween.

Time...marches
Time...marches
On and on and on, flies eternally

It certainly isn't directly against power metal's imagery. but it doesn't SUPPORT it either.

based on the history of the genre, power metal is rooted largely iin two countries.
north america, where the sound tended to be influenced more by speed and thrash.
and europe (especially scandinavia), where the epic imagery, melodic nuances and lighter (comparatively) sound were more popular.

hence, i feel its safe to conclude that helloween is rightly considered a power metal band, albeit more speed and thrash influenced. correspondingly, their album, keeper of the 7 keys, is considered to be an influential power metal album.

2) is Nu-Metal even Metal?

nowadays when mainstreamers think of metal, they think of nu metal bands. especially since this genre is comparatively high profile. furthermore, most metalheads (who listen to "true" metal) are branded as spooky devil worshippers.

is nu metal, even metal.
firstly, its interesting to note that there's nothing "new" about nu-metal. they're just (seemingly) trying to discount their influences to appeal to a younger generation of rebels without causes.
also, i must examine the roots of nu metal.
stylistically, nu metal is a fusion genre of metal and rap.
it isn't a new concept either.
run dmc rapped over aerosmith's walk this way in 1986.
Public enemy's Bring the noise was remade with anthrax in 1991.
there were alternative metal bands with rap and metal early on, like faith no more and rage against the machine.

is nu-metal more rap or metal?
firstly, there are few guitar solos in nu metal, while they're almost a cornerstone of metal.
st. anger flopped for just that reason. no guitar solos.
secondly, nu metal relies heavily on studio production and the dj.
scratching is an important part of nu metal.
it is, so to speak, an alien to metal.
thirdly, lyrically nu-metal is much more similar to rap.
it tends to shy away from topics likely to decrease mainstream appeal.
lastly, image-wise, nu metal bands look nothing like metalheads.
nu metal fashion includes
short, spiked hair.
baggy clothing.
baseball caps.
wallet chains.
most of these have nothing at all in common with traditional metal.

hence, i'm going to conclude that nu-metal isn't metal.
nu-metal is a manufactured term designed to appeal to youths with the idea that is young, yet rebellious (like traditional metal)
yes, it is a related genre to metal.
but then again, grunge is an offshoot of punk.
they don't really have much in common anymore, innit?

3) is metal satanic.

many mainstreamers think metal is satanic, and dismiss it as that.
firstly, the mainstream perception is that metal is an amalgamated genre, much like hip hop or pop.
yes, there are always variations in a genre.
but, metal is a MUCH more diverse genre that can be properly be divided into sub genres.
some examples are...

thrash metal (early metallica, megadeth)
glam metal (guns and roses, poison)
power metal (Dragonforce, manowar)
black metal (Burzum)
groove metal (Later Pantera)
Progressive metal (Opeth)
death metal (napalm death)
heavy metal (judas priest, black sabbath)
speed metal (motorhead, slayer)
doom metal (early black sabbath)

these genres are sometimes so distinct that you can often visually tell a metal fan's following just based on appearance.
for example, a thrasher would wear things like bullet belts.
a power metalhead would wear tight, black clothing.
but most often, you can tell based solely on a person's t shirt.
this is especially so if the band t shirt features an obscure band.

that said, it is a well known fact that there are satanic metalheads.
of course, one must understand the difference between discussing a subject and glorifying it.
that, for example, is the difference between black metal and death metal.
death metal sings about killing people and such.
black metal sings about it and sincerely believes in it.
black metal is the satanic evil corpsepaint burn down churches and slaughter christians type.
they're satanic (some of them. there are also odinists, nazis and such. but most are white supremacists.)
the rest are just saying.
take for example the song mr crowley, by ozzy osbourne.
its a song DISCUSSING aleister crowley.
not worshipping him.

anyway...
this morning seems great thus far.
(yep, its 12 45 and for me that's morning)
i found out that megadeth is coming, for 60 bucks.
and i've called up for 2 jobs that seem to pay decently.
1 is 1200 a month, but full time.
the other is 6 an hour or so.
some roadshow promoter crap.
seems decent.
so now i'll slack until 3 or so.

happy day today!
off to dota.
and yeah, my downloads off bittorent are going swimmingly.
i couldn't find queensryche off limewire.
so im just downloading the whole album off bittorent.
i heard its fantastic...

carry on, by manowar

Carry on my sons forever
Carry on when I am gone
Carry on when the day is long
Forever carry on
For as long as we're together
Then forever carry on

New Blog skin, Aight?

o...kie.
I've finally gotten around to making a new blogskin.
it isn't really a good one though.
but i kinda miss this layout, so even if i switch skins again it'd be this layout again, or similar.

anyway...
i've decided to try out younger music.
no way, i won't stop listening to classic rock.
deep purple, judas priest, iron maiden, black sabbath.
stuff like this is never gonna end for me.
i probably will only remove it from my playlist when i scrap this com.

and no, i will never listen to pop.
i dunno.
what's big nowadays?
i've a feeling its still r and b stuff.
i wouldn't know, aight?
i've heard the name amy winehouse in the papers though.

anyway...
alternative metal stuff...
some of it isn't, musically speaking, metal.
stuff like limp bizkit and linkin park.
nu-metal, basically.
they're not metal, but i still enjoy them.
bands like korn, also.
they're alternative rock, mostly.
but i still enjoy them.
bands like...
faith no more
(they're actually the predecessors of nu-metal, but who'd expect mallcore kids to know THAT)
8 foot sativa
(think slipknot. they sound similar)
yep.
i listen to mallcore stuff occasionally.
its like...
jackfruits.
they're nice, but i don't eat them often.

anyway...
yep.
i'm listening to newer bands (comparatively) for a change.
eventually i'll go back to sabbath, i'm sure.
but anyway...
yeah, i'm now listening to power metal bands, like dragonforce and manowar.
power metal is basically metal, sped up.
its basically based on clean vocals and clean playing.
but, still VERY fast.
its actually a nice change for me.
after black sabbath's proto-doom metal.

anyway...
bad headache, so i'll keep this post short, so i can bathe.
take a look at this.
its 20 secs.
humour me.
oh yah.
and the bboy is fantastic, too.



Disciples of babylon, by dragonforce.

Can you imagine that it's all up to you?
Evil embrace of powers unnatural
You're left in silence, nothing more to behold
You close your eyes and visualize the day you get awa