ever heard of repetitive strain injury?
i think i'm getting it at the back of my neck.
yep.
now i'm a compulsive headbanger.
i headbang like a fuckin' idiot.
all the time.
when you shake your head hard enough you can kinda shake the thought outta your head long enough to numb yourself momentarily.
momentarily.
its the best i can get.
seriously.
whenever i listen to any form of rock nowadays my head goes back and forth non stop.
in time with the drums.
anything from slayer to even MCR.

now i'm headbanging to nirvana.
yep.
maybe i should do a cobain, eh?
yep.
"it's better to burn out than to fade away."
this is what he said in his suicide note.
haha.

song-
nirvana- smells like teen spirit.

Load up on Drugs
Kill your friends
Its fun to lose
And to pretend
She's overboard
Myself assured
I know I know
A dirty word

With the lights out its less dangerous
Here we are now
Entertain us
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now
Entertain us

Im worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end

And I forget
Just what it takes
And yet I guess it makes me smile
I found it hard
Its hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind

(i included all the verses, more or less. they're great. they mean a lot. maybe music saves bludrayne's soul, eh?)