guess what.
i've a new gf, according to hui lin.
she's round, slim, green, transparent and her name starts with c.
she's carlsberg.
yeah.
i'm turning into a fucking alcoholic.
i cant help it.
just like i told hui lin.
alcohol doesnt solve your problems.
its just running away from them.
i know.
and yeah. im doing that.
ive got too much shit on my plate.
i just reached home around 12.
my mum and sis are fighting.
and my mum keeps nagging me to be home by 10.
fuck her.
she's not the boss of me.
she keeps trying to appeal to my sense of sympathy.
she doesnt realize ive lost that a long time ago.
im losing all my emotions.
all for the best, i suppose.
i used to think that even if i lost it all i'd still have my angel by my side.
i suppose i was wrong.
im turning into yuxuan.
ok, nt rly.
im a better listener, apparently.
i drink less.
im dumber.
fatter.
fuck it. i'll start crying if i compare myself further.
im turning numb like him.
yeah.
thats it.
nvm.
i still miss my angel.
must numb myself further, until i can stop thinking about her.
dance tml.
shld i even go?
its not much use dancing if i dont have the soul in it.

song of the day.
NoFX.
i want you to want me.
here. lyrics.

I want you to want me.
I need you to need me.
I'm beggin' you to beg me.
And i want you.