Megadeth

i saw megadeth live on friday.
it was bloody fantastic.
imagine 3k+ ppl all chanting along.
they played a few songs fom the new album and a few classics.
they played she wolf (nads was waiting for that)
which they, apparently, didn't play in thailand.
and the mosh pit was fucking intense.
seriously, my legs were wobbling like hell and i couldn't breathe.
and i've got whiplash again!
it was fucking awesome.
and i'll upload pics as soon as i get it from nad.
she was in the front row taping.
i met her bf.
he's a really nice guy.
he's really friendly and also is a metalhead.
and i was in the 2nd row for megadeth!
seriously, mustaine was only a bit away from me.
i almost caught his pick.
almost.
but i missed it.

and you haven't heard this song until you've heard 3500 rabid metalheads chanting megadeth during the riff.

symphony of destruction, by one of the greatest thrash bands ever!

just like the pied piper.
led rats through the streets.
dance like marionettes.
sway to the symphony.
of destruction...

Which metal genre do you love the most? (Prepare for a long quiz!!!) created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Funeral Doom Metalist You are a funeral doom fan, you like music that has common in death (Music of funerals/ inside the casket) don't worry if someone calls you a goth, you are superior than them as you do not even fear death! Funeral Doom Metalist 77% Thrash Metalist 75% Heavy Metal/Old School 75% Death Metalist 70% Power Metalist 60% Black Metalist 60% Progressive Metalist 47% Non-Metal 33%

funny.
not really into doom.
i like the imagery, but not the tempo.
too slow for me.
i like it when i gotta sleep though.
metal for every occasion.

selwyn is a dodo bird.

i love dodo birds. they look like me. they have been extinct since dunno when and i'm extint. nonono. or should i say endangered. i'm the only dodo bird alive. i have a big big beak and a big big dick. it rhymes. i like it.

that was han fen, my grandaughter.
i think he's high on something.
its either chocolate or sugar.
or crack.
lol.
han fen the crack whore, eh?

anyway... i (selwyn) is still a dodo bird. and i love being one. woohoo. i get high on laughing gas and i get high on crack and i get high on my lecturer. i love him very much. MUACKS. BIG HUG. :DDDDDDD

that, quite obviously, was her again.
she was talking about mr bhangras.
he's a middle aged balding guy with a pot belly.
he's really smart and apparently that turns han fen on.
wow.
i shall now wrest control of my laptop again.

*punches han fen*

ok...
anyway...
megadeth's tonight!
william decided to go at the last minute.
thats bloody last minute, but he still got tickets.

its gonna be fantastic.
i feel like saying something to william that he told me a while back.
welcome to the world of metal.

Touch like an angel of death. Children of Bodom.

i'd crawl through broken glass to you...
and your name is written in my very flesh
with the knife i'm still longing to use

C-O-B-H-C!

Am I Evil?

Megadeth Concert on FRIDAY!
seriously, this weekend's gonna be interesting.
megadeth on friday.
SOME DUMB LECTURE on saturday morning.
heaven and hell on saturday night.
seriously, i wonder how i'm gonna get up for that fucking lecture on saturday.
its at 1pm.
i have to wake up at 11am lor.
it'd usually be fine, but its megadeth the night before...
i'll probably be fucking tired.
not to mention possible whiplash.
again.
i think i'll get whiplash at megadeth from headbanging, while i'll just stand there grinning madly for heaven and hell.
it kinda sucks that i'll be going kinda alone-ish.
for megadeth i'm going with nads....
who is going with her bf.
for heaven and hell i'm going with heather....
who is also going with her bf.
life is a mother toad.
its really total shit that william isnt going.
maybe he isnt that true to metal after all.
or maybe he's just broke.
i'm not going for dream theatre after all.
because i'm broke too.

honestly, spank my ass and call me a bitch, but i'm seriously wondering whether william is as true to metal as i wish he was.
what metal does he listen to?
some thrash.
some metalcore.
i think thats around it.
some post grunge and nu metal?
which isnt exactly metal.
which is why i should move to norway.
yah right.
i WISH.
i rmb seeing footage of wacken open air.
it was metal EVERYTHING!
metal dinner.
groups of metalheads eating chunks of roasted meat while singing viking metal songs.
metal market.
a huge market selling everything metal, from spike bands and t shirts to cds.
true metal, all of them.
one day i HAVE to go to one of those.
watch metal legends like opeth, cannibal corpse and children of bodom play.
every single day.
sing along with fellow metalheads.
play games like "guess the song"
and such.
its not what you do.
its the company you're with.
is william metal?
idk.
i'm kinda in the desert when it comes to metal.
i think i'll think abt william in a new post...

Am I Evil, by Diamond Head

On with the action now, I'll strip your pride
I'll spread your blood around, I'll see you ride
Your face is scarred with steel, wounds deep and neat
Like a double dozen before you, smell so sweet.

See... The... Fire... Burn.

i changed my blogskin.
(no duh, sherlock.)
i think its neater, at least?
idk.
i like the picture though.
i wanted to put another picture, but i havent found a location to take it yet.
any1 know of a pull up bar i have to jump to reach?

death in fire, by Amon Amarth.



oh yeah.
i'm thinking of giving up my name.
the name selwyn, that is.
the selwyn every1 knew is effectively dead.
i never liked my name anyway.
maybe i should start calling myself blüdrayne from now on.
but no1 pronounces it right.
chin ling is worst at it.
he pronounces it bl-OO-der-Drain.
its supposed to be blOOd(stretch and accent the u so it sounds kinda like brood) raYne (stretch the word rain)

I died for you, by iced earth.

Oh how I love you
The pain won't go away
Oh when I need you
You're always so far away
I cry for you
Leaving myself to blame
I died for you
I gave up everything

Soundtrack To Hell.

im now listening to this song by enslaved. its a viking metal song called enslaved.
you know what it feels like?
soundtrack to hell.
it makes me feel like...
i'm in hell.
and there's no way i'm gonna survive.
like i'm damned forever.
it makes me wanna hang myself.
like i'm trapped here and the demons have my soul.

i like it.

somedays the world feels like its all gonna be fine.
somedays i just wish i could fucking kill myself.
i shouldnt stay alone so much.
when i'm alone...
my mind starts to roam...
its kinda nice that i always know that i have this option open to me.
i read a lot.
i know a lot.
i know exactly how to tie a noose to hang myself.
i know exactly where to cut so i'll bleed.
and never stop bleeding until i fall asleep.
forever.

has any1 ever heard of dead?
former vocalist of mayhem.
from what i've read, he felt just like he called himself.
dead.
he surrounded himself ith death.
he breathed deep of the stench of it before singing.
he felt like a corpse.
and he looked just like it too.
take a look.



and thats how i wanna look.
as a conscious statement against every1 who looks human.
who looks alive.
vibrant.
you'll all look like this when you die.
when i kill you all.

maybe this is a new start for me.
maybe it'll be good for me to be a living dead corpse.
corpses cant feel.
corpses cant love.
and they have nothing to lose.

i just feel... dead nowadays.
maybe its because i have nothing to do.
its now 2.
i wont be able to get to sleep anyway.
or maybe the next time i sleep i'll never wake up.
hopefully.

sometimes i'm just fucking sick of it all that i just wanna do a columbine.
seriously, i wont put it past myself doing that.
i hate every1 so i mise well, innit?

you know what they did to dead's skull after he died?
they smashed it into fragments and distributed it to the worthy.
maybe i should do that when i'm gone.
with my knucklebones, perhaps.
it'd be neater.
1 each for my bros.
and possibly some of my corpse left to feed to the dogs.

Atonement, by Opeth

Cleared the fog that was veiled around me
And blurred my sights
Suddenly, I'm no longer aching
To honor my plights

Rising moon and my skin is peeling
Past undone
Suddenly.
I can't justify
What I had become.

Christians To The Lions.

i wonder why i hate christians.
nay, i cant say that.
i have christian friends, so i cant possibly hate ALL christians.
well...
the most accurate way of me putting it is i hate christian zealots who are devoted to the church, that it becomes a major part of their social life. especially if they are fanatically enthusiastic and evangelistic.

whew, that was a mouthful.
well, i still wonder why i hate them.

izzit because of chit ming?
he's fast becoming one of those types.
he's effectively given up his friends in favour of his church friends.
not in the way of attending services.
that'd be understandable.
in favour of socialising with them.

nay, i didnt really like jesus freaks before he was christian, so he only served to reinforce my hatred.

izzit because of my mum?
desperately clinging to an empty faith in a god that has obviously forsaken the world?
her blind faith and devotion curdles my guts.
i am a very rational person.
if there is a god, where are the unexplainable events that can be attributed to him?
christians may say that i am surrounded by them, that i am surrounded by the miracles of his creation.
i say that is a grave insult to the countless workers who toiled to build these buildings for a pittance.
and also,
i cite occam's razor.
no more entities should be presumed to exist than absolutely neccesary.
and also, as for the creation of the universe,
according to the laws of probability, they would have occured sooner or later.
an infinite number of monkeys at infinite typewriters would surely produce the entirety of shakespeare's works.

maybe it is a contributing factor.
that the times where she, time and again, has clung stubbornly to her god only to be disappointed.
have only served to prove to me the futility of blind faith.

izzit... my own experience at church?
i attended church for 4 years.
during that time i wasnt actively shunned.
but i certainly wasnt very welcome either.
ah but then again i wasnt exactly welcome anywhere then.

possibly, because i was kinda a social outcast. so my distaste could stem from being shunned.

nay.
i say its a potent mix.
a strange cocktail of factors leading to my hatred.
i shall break them down to dissect my emotions.
what exactly do i hate about christians?

1) Homogenity
they all seem to have a hivemind like mentality. they all behave and think the same way.
its like a fucking cult.
and i dont mean in a good way.
unity is strength, but where is strength when it is surrounded by stupidity?

2) Strong, unwavering faith
even when comfronted with questions they cannot answer, they still stay convicted of their belief in their idol.
faith is good, but what if you're wrong all along?
what if there is no god?
or what if you're following the wrong one?

3) intolerance.
they are socially intolerant towards those who aren't mainstream.
i dont mean every christian is like that, but from my personal experience, church culture is like that.

4) Unquestioning nature.
have never thought about the feasability of such a "god"
i have, and its entirely possible.
what if god is but a bbeing from a higher dimension?
after all, sufficiently advanced technology would seem like miracles to the unknowing.

so guess what?
i still dont know why.
i certainly do hate church culture.
not christianity.
maybe i hate ORGANISED religion.
maybe.

Skalds And Shadows, by blind guardian

Do not fear for my reason
There's nothing to hide
How bitter your treason
How bitter the lie
Remember the runes and remember the light
All I ever want is to be at your side
We gladden the raven
Now I will run through the blazing fires
That's my choice
'Cause things shall procede as foreseen