THIS IS JUST A REHASH OF WHAT I'VE SAID BEFORE, BUT STILL FEEL STRONGLY ABOUT.
WHATEVER SAID HERE MAY OR MAY NOT BE INTENDED ON.



i hate clubs
i hate clubbing.
i haven't even gone before.
its just a personal thing.
clubs are just over rated places where horny people go just to get smashed and fucked, not neccesarily in that order.
so what if you think its fun?
i seriously wouldnt mind burning one down.
i'd look forward to it, actually.
fuck it.
i DESPISE them.
its just a place people go to look cool.
and i want no part of being cool.
its no longer a passive thing.
its an active thing.
i hate the cool crowd.
the fuckers that despise me.
i despise them too.
the difference is that i've got the balls to say it.
fuck you all cool kids.
i'm a freak for life.
an outcast.
i've got my lil' crew.
i dont wanna hear from you all.
i'm crazy, thats what you said.
so now i'll actively promote that idea.
i'm crazy from now on, k?
i'll burn down your clubs and watch you lil' bitches run out the doors in your heels.
i'll hope that you all DIE.
i'll stab you and your cool clique.
i'll watch you all bleed.
and i'll smile.
seriously.
thats most of the people in my course.
i wasnt ever really happy in my course in the first place.
some people i was fine with.
some people i was fine with sometimes and some times i hated them.
some people i hated with a vengeance.

its no secret i hated adam and his clique.
it was never about their personally.
its about them being cool.
yes. i said that.
but for me its in a derogatory way.
why'd you wanna be cool, bitches.
ooh.
hit me back.
i'll choke you until your eyes pop out your heads.

maybe 1 day i'll really flip it and kill 'em all.
seriously.
i dont mind.
not like i have much to live for anyway.

education? not going very well.
relationships? dysfunctional.
social life? my crew.
b-boying? i suck. plain and simple. yuxuan said it. neither here nor there.
health? going soon. unlike my huge spare tire.

what do i have to live for?
i used to have people who said they'll cry at my funeral.
guess what?
not anymore, i presume.
i dont wanna have an unnoticed funeral.
i didnt want the embarassment.
fuck it.
i wont have a funeral.
i'll blow myself up.
there'll maybe be enough of me to stuff in a small box.
YAY!
seriously.
columbine was wack.
half assed job.
if i did it i'd probably do it much better.
timothy mcveigh was better skilled.
but pussy boy left it half done.
he left himself alive.

if i blew up my school.
there'd be so much blood.
i'd be more human than human.
i'd kill every1.
no matter who.

any1 read the reader's digest article on timothy mcveigh?
the workers in the building were all innocent.
but by condoning the actions taking place, they were guilty too.
like stormtroopers in star wars.
or foot soldiers in nazi germany.

how cool you are wont matter.
the number of drunk retards you've grinded doesnt matter in the end.
we all die eventually.
and for you all i'd relish speeding things up.

no, i dont need counselling.
no, i dont need god.
tried it before.
never worked.
im cursed to be a freak for life.

1 day i hope to tell them.
i hope to tell them, if i'm ever succesful in life.
i'm gonna tell those upper class bitches.
look beneath the paint, bitch.
i'm the scrub who finally won.

i wonder who'd recognize this.

Searching for the cure for soul's demise
Read the tears of the victim's cries
You'll need more to kill the suffer of a
Brother demon that’s a purely wonder
Kill before the time, kill them all
Blast out the righteous mark
Serving justice that dwells in me.
Nothing comes as far as the eye can see