*EXTRA*

i forgot to explain why i'm gone on sunday.
well. yuxuan says that if i leave after the performance, like i originally planned.
i'll just fuck up the whole thing.
well.
i dont know why.
if i could i'll just walk up to the mp and tell her that i dont wanna be the pawn of a cabal who dont even give a fuck, and walk off.
well.
he's the choreographer.
if he wants 2 take me out, i respect his decision.
maybe he's afraid i'll intentionally fuck up the choreo.
oh well.
shldnt probe.
wont.
so anyway.
if i go i'll just be watching you all.
wasting my time.
this sunday is probably the last time.
i anticipate a huge argument with peter.
i dont care.
this is my moral obligation.