well. apparently no1 understands why i'm leaving the crew.
yuxuan thinks i'm leaving the crew for all the wrong reasons.
he probably misunderstands why i'm leaving in the first place.
he's smart.
he'll get it soon.
peter...
he found out from the blog.
and after that he asked me why i'm leaving.
when thats the exact reason why my blog post is so fucking long.
and ben asked me the other day where is the crew blog.
fucking hell.
it isnt the first time.
he's asked me b4.
he's been there b4.
the lil' fuckin' rotter.
anyway...
sunday's probably the last time i'll be down with the crew.
they dont seem to understand why i'm doing this.
its not just an issue of creative control for me, though that is certainly also a major point of contention.
its also philosophical and moral issue here.
i know i'll just be repeating myself.
but i'll say it here again.
i dont know what else to say.
its all in that post.
as an anarchist, i'm morally opposed to associating with the government, in any sort.
i dont wanna be seen as under a government institution.
its freedom.
its freedom to choose my performance style.
i'm quite sure i'll be alone in feeling like this on sunday.
the rest of you all...
i know you all...
lemme see.
wilson, yuxuan, nic, ivan, fabian, zen, ervin.

1) THOSE THAT WILL SAY SEE HOW IT GOES FIRST, AND EVENTUALLY BECOME PAWNS OF THIS FASCIST REGIME
Wilson, fabian ervin and zen.

2) THOSE THAT WILL ACTIVELY SUPPORT THE IDEA OF GOING UNDER THE CC
Nic, ivan.

3) THOSE WHO WILL GO UNDER THE CC, ALBEIT LESS THAN WILLINGLY
Erin.

4) THOSE THAT WILL BE STRONGLY OPPOSED TO IT.
me.

yep. so i'm quite sure the crew will carry on without me.
for this i blame peter.
fully.
you're a manager.
you're not a dictator.
after our first performance we all said no.
what were you thinking?
i'd rather go back to 555.5 if using the cc's facilities means we're going down this way.
cant you see they're just using us to enhance their image?
they dont even know about hip hop culture.
they dont even CARE.
they're using us, and you're so blind that you cant see it?
you're making us sell out.
and no, i'd rather keep my morals.
fuck off, man.
fuck off.

this is dedicated to my crew.
its Nirvana.
smells like teen spirit.

I'm worse at what I do best
And for this gift I feel blessed
Our little group has always been
And always will until the end.