random ramblings from a deranged crackpot

shit.
my back hurts.
this is, apparently,
what happens when you land wrongly.
forward handspring suicide.
lols.
i dont know if it looked nice or not.
dont really care.
didnt hurt at first.
felt.
normal.
LOL.
and my mum just screamed at me and everything because im not the slightest bit concerned about this.
honestly, this is a bit of a joke to me.
if i can still walk normally then i shld be fine, innit?
lols.
honestly i think its laughable.
knocks and bumps and the sort are kinda to be expected.
i kinda enjoy them, actually.
i'll be fine in a couple of days.
and i'll be back injuring myself again, innit?

i wonder if there's practice again tml.
shall have to ask yuxuan.
and i'm fuckin' bored.
i NEED to get a memory stick for my psp asap.
fuck it.
maybe i'll take a day and go down to sim lim.
c how.
i dont really feel like it.
i dont really feel like much.

im suddenly feeling like shit again.
i wonder when i'll die.
is this all there is to life?
i dont wanna die alone.
maybe im afraid.
but i'd honestly like to see how'd it feel like to kill.
before i die.
if i had a choice i'd spend the last hour of my life with my friends, before i kill myself.