fuck it.
you guys never come through for me.
everytime its either busy, tired or BLATANTLY saying you cant be bothered.
fuck it, guys.
why cant i even get my own bro to save me?
i bet if i was about to get killed by some fucking chau ah beng you guys wouldnt come down either.
fuck you, guys.
i thought i could depend on you, if my world collapsed around me.
you guys are the good time crew.
always ready to come for good times.
like midnite drinking sessions at some ulu playground in the middle of punggol park.
or if there's food involved.
like at the crew gathering the other time.
or at the other time we had that housewarming thing.
where we all got too drunk to fuck.
but where r u guys now?
fuck it.
its always the usual guys u think u can rely on.
you guys never come through.
its the ones who i always think are unreliable who never come through for me.
yesterday, ccl.
today, cm.
yeah, strangely, it's cm today.
we haven't heard frm that guy for dunno how long.
and strangely enough.
other ppl who i haven't spoken to for the longest time are the ones that are more likely to help me.
shen yu de.
dunno how long nv talk to him b4 the factory job.
he also try his best to help me.
but he also having similar prob.
so bo pian.
chua fulin.
knn... my FUCKING bro lor...
ccb...
blatantly keeps telling me he's too lazy and cant be bothered.
fuck you, guys.
you guys know how broke we are.
you guys know how much i work.
for me to NOT work and get you guys to replace me?
that fucking means its not just fucking ANYTHING.
this morning i let my crew down.
i dont know why i felt guilty about THAT.
you guys have been letting me down for a long while already.
look.
we're all poor, yuxuan aside.
he doesn't need cash so he doesn't need to work.
but for the rest of us, we dont have much cash.
fuck.
if i wanted to, i could constantly nag my mum for cash.
she'd give.
i know she will.
but fuck, she's having a hard time working.
i can at least help her by not asking her for cash all the time.
its the holidays.
dont be a fucking bum.
you guys wont get paid for bboying.
anytime soon.
fuck it.
galley very far, true.
pay isn't very gd, true.
uniform looks like fuck, true.
but its better than nothing.
so fuck you, guys.
i literally rotted my last holiday away waiting for yuxuan to get me a job.
i'm not gonna do that for this.