i randomly started listening to nine inch nails.

"i looked into the eye of the beast, and what i saw was beautiful."
-John Locke (the LOST character, not the philosopher. Shame on me)

anyway, this is Hurt, By Nine Inch Nails.
Trent Reznor is a genius.
listen to it, k?
its a beautiful keyboard ballad.

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that's real
The needle tears a hole
The old familiar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of shit
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stains of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end

You could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

(HAPPY BIRTHDAY HAN FEN!)