i love you my dear.
i don't know why this ended.
i still love you too much to let go of you.
i don't ever want this to end.
we've got so much left to do.
there's still so much we've got to say to each other.
i always put it off to next time.
now...
there may not be a next time.
i seriously hope there will be.
ut i'm not sure.
it all depends on you.
you'll always hold a special place in my heart.
i believed that we could last for long.
from my point of view.
we kinda did.
4 months is longer than i've ever had.
but 4 months isn't enough for me.
i love you too much to say goodbye.
i don't wanna be just friends with you.
i've seen so much more of your kind heart to be just friends with you.
i love you.
i just cant bear to let go.
i know that most of my sentences are self centred pieces of crap.
but if i don't try to to catch your heart i'd never have gotten it in the first place.
please don't do this.
i just can't bear to let go.
4 months isn't really enough for me.
there's too many memories to let go.
i love you too much.
i still rmb.
at starbucks at holland v.
"be my nancy?"
i don't care if you don't wanna be my nancy.
all i want is for you to be my alexis loo quanrung.
everytime i hear the song...
way back into love.
i just cant help but break down and cry.
every single thing.
reminds me of the love we shared.
i don't want this to end.
please.
i still love you.
here's the note i was gonna print for our 4th month anniversary note.
i'm not gonna print it already.
it'll be too painful.

hey dear.
it's been 4 months already.
i still love you.
i hope you still love me.
i don't know if you do.
you didn't even reply when i asked you that.
its ok.
i'll have to believe that you do.
i really hope to see a 5th month with you, and maybe more.
could you promise me that?
please?
don't leave.
i still love you.
please?
i hope what i made you this month is good enough for you.
i remember what i made you once.
you hated it.
i could tell.
you hated it so much that you didn't even want me to try last month.
this month's my last try.
if you still don't like it...
then i honestly don't know what to do.
i don't know.
maybe this is the last time i'll be doing this.
maybe this is our last anniversary?
i've no idea.
its really up to you.
i still love you.
goodbye, angel.

i wrote this in the morning.
more or less right before you told me that our love faded.
maybe it has to you.
but we can get it back again.
together.
i know i sound pathetic.
i am.
i never could ever have given you the happiness you really deserved.
but i know 1 thing.
i really love you.
i could've tried harder to make you happy.
and i should've.
then maybe today we'll still be together.
just like we could've been for so many more months of love to come.