guess what? i found bossa nova versions of
1)Ever Fallen In Love?, originally by The Buzzcocks.
2) Too Drunk To Fuck, originally by the Dead Kennedys.
they're quite nice...
and every1 gives me the blank stare they always do.
none of u have heard of the buzzcocksor the dead kennedys, and at most....2 or 3 have even heard of bossa nova.
well... i'll jst say, then, that its a jazzy-type cover of a punk classic.
and most of you dont have much of an idea of what is punk either.
no, simple plan isn't punk.
neither is avril lavigne.
LAWL.
u guys dont really understand this.
or much on many topics, honestly.
you guys are great in many other relevant ways, but with all due respect,
1) whatever you hear on the radio is shit.
2) pop stars have zero talent.
3) u cant bboy to japanese anime music.
4) u cant bboy all the time either. i'd like to, but how about pausing for life matters?

i'm starting my shitty factory job tml. on the first.
8 30 pm to 8 30 am.
12 hours doing the same shit over and over again.
with mickey mouse.
i dont like it.
but i've no choice.
as i told him b4.
holidays are 4 us to work so we can relak during the semester.
i need to work.
so i can have an easier time during the sem.
and not constantly whine abt being broke.
we're all broke, guys.
so i'm working while i can so i can be less broke.
true, money's always nt enough.
but we all know we could do fine with a few hundred lying around.
just got my pay today.
as well as fulin's.
so total amount for me now is around 250.
anyway...
its kinda depressing when every1 is so negative or unresponsive about work anymore.
i know you guys are short of cash so i jio u all to work together.
shouldnt have tried, honestly.
its more or less only me and wilson at most.
who gives a fuck.
its sometimes not even worth it meetin u guys.
fulin keeps pulling my tail and i cant even slap him.
and sometimes i cant even talk much to you guys so i just tune out to my ipod.
no, i', not always emo-ing when i do that.
there just isn't much to talk with u guys sometimes.
especially when u guys talk about something i'm not involved with, as inevitably happens.
half the time the conversation topic ends up about either lion dance or wushu.
ESPECIALLY when ccl's around.
man...
it must suck to be him.
there's apparently not much else in his life....

10 random things you never knew about me (and would rather not know).

1) My Favourite colour in itself is blue, but for clothing its more-or-less strictly black and white. or black.

2) I usually sleep in my boxers. its getting kinda cold ever since they cleaned my air con, hence the boxers.

3) I love prison break and lost. this kinda stuff. i watched every single episode of season 1 of lost, except the 1st one.

4) i dont like vodka. surprising, eh? considering how much of it i drink when its available.

5) i've the strange talent of being able to fall down really nicely. LOL

6) i like boxers with quirky prints.

7) i wear shoe size 12. double yuxuan's. the thing about shoe size and dick length is false. unfortunately for me and FORTUNATELY for yuxuan.

8) i read a lot but i dont like stories, usually. i like factual stuff. encyclopedias... the like.

9) i was a scout. no wait. scratch that. once a scout, always a scout. i AM a scout, and have been for over 8 years now.

10) i hate pop music, regardless of language.

just some random pix i dug up from my com...

this pic is like... 1 year old liao....
its william.
taken when working at yeo's





this OBSCENE picture is me at clark quay station, after working as a psycho fanguy thingy...
i saw the ad with the model's legs spread apart and couldnt resist taking this...





this is while visiting during the recent new year...
from right...

CM/crystal maiden/chipmunk/devout christian/chit ming,
WTF/weng tat/a tat,
FL/fooling/fulin/lao fu,
yuxuan/erin/erina/muscular freak/player,
nicholas/nic/nicky/freaky nicky/dudefreak/naked wong,
zhenhong/zen/zencroix/toya,
selwyn(ME!)/ alexis's slave/Munky/drunkn munky/selBALLS/selwyna/emowyn/BALLSwyn.
yeah. we've got too many handles.





thats it. thats all.

(im sorry. i know i fucked up. please forgive me. i know its hard. but please do. i still love you. and i'll continue loving you until i kill myself.)

well...
im supposed to list out a few of my fave songs.
i rmb saying i would.
a long time back.
so in no particular order...

1) Fade To Black, By Metallica

From the second non-demo album, Ride The Lightning, Fade To Black was written after almost ALL of Metallica's equipment was stolen during a performance.
hence, the song was written using equipment borrowed from fellow Thrash metal band Anthrax.
Lyrically, the song is about suicide.
its about someone who has lost sense of why he is living.
he only feels the emotion welling up from within.
after losing something, things have changed for him.
the only one who can stop him from killing imself is he himself.
but things have gone too far.
its too late for him.

2) Nothing Else Matters, By Metallica

From the wildly popular self-titled album, also referred to as the Black Album for its nearly all-black cover, Nothing else matters was originally written by James Hetfield about a girl.
very un-metal.
this was the first true ballad by Metallica.
now, Metallica considers it to be a song for the fans.
nothing else matters besides them.
personally, i find the song very meaningful.
sometimes to me it can mean...
nothing else matters.
nothing matters in life.
it shows me the futility of existence.
other times.
it means other things.

3) The Hell Song, Sum 41

ahh... at last its not a Metallica song...
anyway...
i love this song...
its pop-punk.
so?
its still a great song.
i love the lyrics.
they just speak to me.
it fits my mood almost all the time.
if i feel like crying, it suits my mood.
if im happy, it fits my mood.
i just love this song.

4) Till' I Collapse, Eminem Ft. Nate Dogg

this is my personal "fight song"
its very motivational.
it tells em not to take out all my frustrations on myself.
and instead to chain them out and hit them back out at the world.
i especially like the freestyle version by 50 cent.

5) Sweet Child O' Mine, Guns And Roses

i love this song.
the guitar intro is legend.
was made as a joke.
but its 1 of the most recognisable intros ever.
listen to the live versions. just feel the energy.
hear the crowd roar when the song starts.
i like the lyrics too...
they're about a girl.
they speak of love et al....

6) Wait And Bleed, Slipknot.

i love the chorus to this song.
i love the lyrics.
inside my shell i wait and bleed.
and i love the energy the verses are just SCREAMED.
this song just comforts me.
it makes me just wanna slam my head repeatedly into the nearest convenient hard surfacce until im reduced to a bleeding mess.
which im really tempted to do now.

7) Crazy Train, Ozzy Osbourne

i love this song.
it was included in the soundtrack of the Ghost Rider movie.
the part where johnny blaze jumps the helicopters.
lyrically, this song talks about insanity.
(im going off the trains on a crazy train)
also, 1 line criticises organised religion
(i listen to preachers. i listen to fools.)
i love the guitar solo in this song.
and the intro is one of the most recognizable, due to the high pitched screams of ozzy...

8) Ace Of Spades, Motörhead

i love the hammering guitar intro.
it literally bores into your skull.
it drives into ur skull.
and the lyrics...
they speak of knavery.
its just me.
a sly knave.
a rigue.
an ace of spades.

9) God Save The Queen, The Sex Pistols

i love the way Johnny Rotten just SNEERS the lyrics.
he's so disdainful that you cant help but agree.
even though the song is of a different time and location, the sentiment is universal.
you can kill the protestor. but you can never can kill the protest.

10) Drop, Timberland & Magoo ft. Fat Man Scoop

i know this song isnt a very gd 1 technically.
but this just reminds me of the first time we bboyed.
yuxuan...
rmb the 1st time at nic's house?

so this wraps it up.
thats it.
10 great songs.
a slice of my life.

haha.
just woke up.
had a shitty day at work yesterday.
my fault.
i fucked up.
with all due respect, boss,
you pay peanuts, you get munky.
but nvm...
明天会更好.
the next day will be better.
anyway...
i kinda miss some ppl.
i miss eboy and the crew.
i miss drinking with my friends.
i miss the fellowship and the company more than the actual drinking actually.
LOL
and i miss qr...
havent seen her in a few days.
wont see her in a few days, too.
its kinda surreal waking up and having literally nothing to do.
i've probably got it off until next weekend.
i dont miss the work.
fuck that.
i miss the cash.
LOL.
worked for...
dunno how many hours.
shld be due another 100 at least.
i know for one that i made 50 yesterday.
anyway...
look at THIS.



this is proof that you can combine extreme showmanship with actual musical talent.
behind all the overdone costumes and lavish sets, there is actually SOME talent.
those countless chinese poppy sensations should take a leaf out of his book.
marilyn manson is a bitch though.
thats why twiggy ramirez left the band.
LAWL.
and...
i dont have anything to do against chinese music.
i just hate pop.
i hate english poppy sensations too.
just that chinese ones seem to be more prominent now.
ah well.
i shld go wash up, innit?
gotta go wynne's house.
then gotta come home.
maybe i'll take an afternoon nap.
havent done THAT in a long time...

i'm gona dye my hair tml.
i dont know what to dye.
i wanted to dye it totally green, but alexis din like.
she thinks dye whole head very ugly.
she likes highlights more.
can tell.
but there isnt much to highlight 4 me.
zzz....
no fringe to streak.
nothing...
unless i highlight my tail XP
my hair too short.
cant really highlight.
bbut if any1 has any suggestions please tell me, k?
and no, i dun want brown.
i dont wanna look like every other poppy sensation pretty boy out there.
anyway... this was wat i originally wanted.



just imagine it in green, thats all.
but now....
change of plan.
1 more day to decide.
pink hair?

i REALLY hate banglas too.
yeah, i hated them before.
but i REALLY hate them now.
no, they didn't grope me.
even though most of them are fucking FAGS after some MALE booty when they cant get any gals.
which is most of the time.
who'd wanna screw a shitfaced nigger?
anyway...
i dont hate them only because of their skin colour.
no, that'd be unfair.
i also hate them for many other VALID reasons.
they're fucking alcoholics lor.
they come just to drink like dunno what.
5 mins after the event started half f them already collected and opened the 3 cans of beer allocated to them.
its only 3 cans.
it isnt much.
mise well sip it slowly, rigght?
but NOOOO.....
these banglas couldnt SIP the beer slowly..
i'm glad they were given tigers.
they couldnt tell the diff between tigers and other brands, probably...
they just gulped it down...
like they were gulping down cum from another faghead bangla.
and they dont know how to eat neatly.
i thought i was messy.
but i changed my mind.
at least my food stays on my plate.
them?
everywhere BUT the plates.
even on the floor too.
how fitting, isnt it?
the bangla cleaners clean the mess on the floor made by the bangla workers.
its like a fucking cycle, innit?
and fuck it.
some fucking banglas puked in the bowls of sharks fin...
see already heart pain...
these banglas dont know how to appreciate things.
i was itching just to stab them...
i wished 1 had attacked me so i could have an excuse to kill him.
and take out my frustrations.
i'm not saying all banglas deserve to die.
there are SMART banglas too.
the 1 who cleared the dustbin, for example.
work hard, work smart.
the others?
drink tigers.
puke all over the place.
(i also puke when i'm drunk, but try to AIM YOUR PUKE, FFS!)
scream like idiots.
dance with each other.
(yes, ever seen two black guys grinding?)
PINCH MY GF'S BUTT
(fuck lah... she din tell me at first. i only found out when we were sms-ing after work.)
imagine what we could have done if we could just run about wildly stabbing people.
anyway...
i'm late again, as usual.
gotta go.

i'm typing this on the bus.
i'm on the way home from bugis.
i went to do my writcom project.
it's due tml.
i hate it.
no surprise, huh?
i hate the poster part.
i tried helping mum with it.
yeah.
mummy peggy.
the only 1 in class who isn't pissed at me now.
yes, i rmbed to include qr.
anyway....
stupid poster...
i tried to help designing it.
failed miserably.
as with everything else.
i have zero creativity, apparently.
i don't know why i even offered to try in the first place.
i was more of a hinderance than a help.
and anyway...
william jio-ed me for shopping this weekend.
honestly, now its just me and him.
my mum threatened not to gimme cash for that this morning.
LAWL.
i told her that i'd be perfectly happy wearing black this new year,
and i'd probably look better, too.
she promptly said.
"if you dont cooperate then expect to be excluded from family activities."
then she slammed the door on my face.
fuck it.
and i rly shld make a list of stuff that i wanna buy, so i wun spend the day running around in circles,
even though i kinda like it.
but no1 else does.
so...
here goes.

1) BLACK Motorhead t-shirt with snaggletooth on it.
2) BLACK Ramones t-shirt with the Ramones/USA logo on it.
3) BLACK Metallica t-shirt with Kill 'Em All cover art on it.
4) BLACK Anti-Flag t-shirt with gunstar on it.
5) Hooks for making belt chain with.
6) Bullet Belt
7) Boots
8) Cheap, plain white t-shirt to destroy.
9) Knives
10) Sex Pistols t-shirt
11) Socks (Preferably black)
12) Belt Chains
13) Belt Buckles
14) Cheap belts to decorate
15) Boxer Shorts

and oh yeah...
i HAVEN'T PAINTED MY DOOR.
i'm a fucking procrastinator.
i'll have to do it soon...

TO-DO LIST
1) Paint Door
2) Submit MINDEF deferment form.
3) Finish up citations for writcom.
4) Vacuum room.
5) Buy new year clothes
6) Buy present for QR
7) Sharpen knives
8) Look for missing knives
9) Pay library fines
10) Rearrange furniture in room.
11) MAKE present for QR
12) MAKE card for QR
13) Borrow thumb drive for tml.
14) Download tons of songs to keep myself preoccupied during new year festivities.

haha... cant really think of much more...
i've typed all the way from bugis to rs, btw.
haha...
what a coincidence.
they used to be my 2 favourite places to hang at.
oh well.
any1 got any nice punk songs to intro?
been bored nowadays.
haha...
none of my bros even listen to punk.
what am i asking for?
LAWL.
they all listen to either j-pop or chinese pop, mostly.
and no, nic.
simple plan isn't punk.
and LAWL.
zen's the first bboy who doesn't listen much to hip hop.
oh well.
to each his own.
no wait.
i think wilson was first.
HAHA
haiz...
i'm at kovan now.
nothing much more to say.
oh well.
i'll listen to more emo songs until i'm home.
dream on...
dream on...
everybody's got their dues in life to pay...
*fades out of existence*

i'm very disappointed with t107.
first up,
we didn't fuck any of you up, except ch and val.
none of you have any right to feel pissed, besides the 2 of them.
seriously?
this is major fucked.
and btw, val.
i don't know what shit airell's been feeding you.
but trust me.
he's behind this.
it's fucked that you're still tight with him.
but that's just the way shit is.
i'd understand if you and ch were pissed with qr.
fuck it, i'd be pissed too if some1 did that to me.
but for the rest of you,
you've got zero right to get involved.
to put it bluntly,
it ain't your beef.
you ain't touchin this.
i didn't do anything to you all.
neither did she.
you guys talk about us being all in this together.
but why stick together if you guys let it slide when airell's the 1 who fucked you guys up anyway?
you guys are selling like dunno what.
seriously?
how many joints did airell slip you guys?
you guys seem stoned outta your wits.
fuck it.
fuck ya'll.
all of ya'll.
and if u think i'm just saying this bcos of qr.
fuck it.
ur right.
i cant give less of a fuck abt myself.
airell's the 1 who really fucked you guys up.
i don't know why you guys are still stickin wit him.
i'd stick it TO him.
you all have seen how's he like when there's shit to do.
business first.
yeah, he's a nice guy and all.
but as soon as it'll put him up a notch.
he'll fuck your asses RAW.
i ain't saying qr is innocent.
she isn't.
she agreed.
but fuck it.
airell's the 1 who planned this shit.
why'd u flippin' out more on qr.
and most of u guys shouldn't even be touching this shit in the first place.
you guys have seen it.
during the mass convo.
qr was trolling most of the way.
she din even say shit.
all she did was agree with airell.
and say shit like anything.
you guys are flip.
seriously.

sian...
my mum painted my door white.
i dont even like plain white.
the only time i like white is when its mixed with black.
she's being very mean about it.
like...

"its MY house"
"any1 does anything to my house they better WATCH OUT."
"i'm your parent. you got no say."

i know i'm supposed 2 try 2 be nicer 2 my mum, but its my room.
you dont even come in here.
i LIVE here.
when i'm at home i'm here.
nowhere else.
i wanna paint my door how i want it to look.
and fuck it.
i will.
i gotta wash up and leave for work in 20 mins.
i'll do it tml.
this my design, btw.



i didn't do this just to piss her off, btw.
i genuinely like this.
any1 got any comments on my design?
any at all?

i confess.
i'm an addict.
i'm addicted to whiskey.
specifically, whiskey in the jar.
haha...
it's a song i downloaded.
it's actually an irish folk song.
but it was covered by many bands.
such as metallica, the grateful dead and thin lizzy.
i'm currently listening to the cover by metallica.
that's just because i cant seem to download any other versions.
my internet;s very SLOOOWWW....
i dont know how come it's acting up all of a sudden though..

check this, niwae. its funny. lol.

How To Give A Man Hug Real men hug each other.

i'm such a failure in life.
dropped out of san da.
default financial status is broke.
and when i tried slashing my arm just now my knife wasn't even sharp enough to cut through my skin.
i need to sharpen it.
nic, zen.
rmb when we did my back?
we had to sharpen my knife every 3 strokes or so.
anyway...
i've only got 2 things in life to live for.
alexis.
and bboying.
i'm lousy with both.
i just manage to piss alexis off ever so often.
i just can't be the guy she deserves.
i offered to be her slave.
with a collar around my neck.
i'd be a better 1 than i'm a boyfriend.
i can't even get enough cash to get her proper gifts.
and i cant help feeling constantly inferior.
every single guy is cuter.
and she's way better in every single way.
smarter...
more hardworking....
better looking...
richer...
just now i saw her parents' car.
merc.
just the time of car i used to spit on and scratch for being fucking rich bastards.
she said her family was financially tight because they repaired the roof for another few k...
my mum just said that about the paint we bought for the house.
totalled around 200 bucks.
she said that she'd ask for extra pocket money for "printing notes" when she finished hers last time.
i'd just starve.
i'd try to flee from paying $2 to the class fund for months just because i couldn't afford it.
i knew my family was poor.
i'd try to avoid asking my mum for cash.
i was constantly broke.
so was my mum.
she'd work hard all day long...
then she'd feel guilty about neglecting us...
so she'd splurge on us during birthdays and christmas.
after a while...
i'd grow up.
i'd just decline christmas presents.
my birthday and christmas is already close enough.
when i was young...
i hated my mum for not spending enough time with us...
when i grew up i realised that my mum had no choice.
faggot father jumped on us...
din pay child maintennance.
ever.
bastard owes us too much.
i heard malaysia was flooded...
i hope he drowned.
my mum...
she works too hard.
you guys can probably state what your parentS work as.
i cant.
my mum has lotsa jobs.
her resume would certainly be interesting.
-building manager at thong chai medical clinic.
-Private investigator. (twice. worked at 2 companies)
-real estate agent. (worked under 3 companies which i know of so far)
-secretary (a long time ago, at a bank.)
-art director

and this is just what i know of.
i know she's held other jobs. seriously?
i know my mum loves me.
i don't need you guys to jio me for dinner then constantly flame me about it.
its just that sometimes she's unreasonable.
fuck it.
who isn't?
i am too.
trying to impose my wishes on others.
isn't that unreasonable?

and i'm sick of every1 thinking of me as mr. wikipedia.
and i'm sick of you guys thinking of me as some freak who cant be understood most of the time.
i HATE it when some1 says "that's so selwyn"
i know i speak like that too...
but no1's complained.
but now i'm complaining.
you guys shouldn't expect me to know every little esoteric fact.
yeah. whip out your dictionary.
E-SO-TE-RIC.
k?
and yeah, the only reason why i know so many stupid words is because i'm a fucking NERD.
VIN-DI-CA-TED.
magic the gathering card.
emo dashboard confessional song.
vindicate.
means to absolve of blame or guilt.
or proven innocent.
yeah.
since when is it a crime to know more?
it's useless.
but why should i be ashamed of myself because of that?
i'm NOT mr wikipedia.
i just happen to know many stupid things, k?
yeah.
i know more stupid, USELESS things than useful ones.
and yeah, i don't have my head screwed on right like AIRELL.
i know i suck at lotsa stuff.
and yeah, airell was punctual ONCE while i'm more or less ALWAYS late.
i know.
i can never live up to your expectations.
or what you deserve.
i'm sorry.
but i don't need EVERY1 to fucking RUB IT IN all the time.
all that i hear is reminders of my failure everywhere.
sometimes too much reminding is depressing.
i already KNOW it.
and i'm trying to change.
i wish someday i'd be the perfect guy.
my mum constantly reminds me that since alexis is frm a rich family i'd better do well academically so she'd like me still...
i don't know where she pulled that out from.
but i dont really need to be reminded thatn alexis is much richer than me.
she can afford to let her piercings close if she just doesn't like them.
me?
i did mine for 20 cents.
diy.
was slightly slanted.
still was too cheapo to let it close and redo it.
u rly wanna know how i'd be like if i was rich enough to never care about employment or anything at all?
full back. stylised dragon curling down my torso.
full sleeves.
teardrop tattoo below my eye.
wrist piercing.
nape piercing.
smiley piercing.
spiderweb tattoo on elbow.
you guys can afford to play around with this kinda stuff.
i cant.
the closest i'll ever get will probably be slicing open my skin with a razor blade.
i'd rather do that anyway.
you want somethin done right?
u gotta do it yourself.
and thus...
nic...
can u cut this time?
then zen can cut the next one.
i'll get a sharper knife this time. promise.
i'll think up a design too.
i'll try to get 1 which is mostly straight lines, k?
untl next time...
M.I.A.M.I
money is a major issue.
think about it.
take a second.