watch this.



apparently its a song by some metalcore band.
i'm not surprised because its a fuckin' joke.
ok. listen to it.
i admit, opening riff is decent (aside from the cheesy GO THUNDERHAWKS! part)
once the vocals come in it start cracking me up.
and watch the video.
wow.
its you got served meets metalcore.
its fuckin' bullshit.
cracks me up always.

and whats with the hip thrusts in the beginning?

and come to think of it.

i cant fucking stand 1234543212345 breakdowns in a song.

fucking pisses me off.

and this is why i hate metalcore.

...and i need to shit.

The stench of redemption- Deicide

Dead and gone, you and the hatred
Ignorance, is searing in failure
What is what, will always be questioned,
You're the one who lives in deception

you know what?
i was reading this wiki article on hitler and vegetarianism.
lemme quote a bit off it.

In an attempt to disgust dinner guests and provoke them into shying away from meat, he reportedly told graphic stories of visits he had made to a slaughterhouse in the Ukraine. Food writer Bee Wilson notes: "It amused him to spoil carnivorous guests' appetites... As they put their forks down in disgust, he would harangue them for hypocrisy. 'That shows how cowardly people are,' he would say. 'They can't face doing certain horrible things themselves, but they enjoy the benefits without a pang of conscience.'"

i agree, actually.
(honestly, in some ways hitler was even likeable)
i don't think people should be given the privilege to eat meat unless they have the scruples to slaughter and dress the animal for themselves if so required.
unless they can readily admit they would be perfectly willing to kill to eat... they are but hypocrites.

watch this video.
http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=-513747926833909134
its the PETA meet your meat video.
would you be willing to watch this while eating meat?

in a way i'm saying i admire vegetarians who take up vegetarianism for these reasons.
it is their decision, and it is not my place to judge it.

we would like to see most of the human race killed off because it is unworthy; it is unworthy of the gift of life.
Antichristian Phenomenon- Behemoth

you know, i'm fucking fed up with people who invite me to join facebook or stuff like that.
listen up.
breaking news.
I AM NOT GONNA JOIN FACEBOOK.
I DONT GIVE A FUCK WHO HAS.
I DONT GIVE A FUCK IF EVERYONE HAS.
I WONT GIVE A FUCK EVEN IF JELLO BIAFRA HIMSELF INVITED ME TO JOIN.
FACEBOOK IS FOR TRENDY FUCKWADS ANYWAY.
i hope everyone understands my point.

thing is...
i dont see anything that interests me in this concept.
i dont like the fundamental idea behind social networking sites.
ie. i do not like the concept of social networking.
i don't even like talking to people too much in real life already.
what makes anyone fucking think i would want to be barraged by the presence of others in my leisure time.

you know what?
maybe i should carry on the thing where i dont talk.

No guts, no glory- Bolt Thrower

Swallow no pride, strength from inside
Still driving on, second to none

you know... ever thought about how life could've been different if you did stuff differently?
as in... how some minor detail could've totally changed the course of your life?
its kinda interesting to think about it actually.
and sometimes i wish i had made those choices instead.
i wonder where my life would've ended up instead.

who knows maybe i would've been some useless piece of shit party boy instead?
nah. i wouldn't, unless i was rich.
damn.

come to think of it i usually hate rich people.
yeah.
dont usually get along with rich people.
come to think of it i dont usually get along with people, rich or poor.
but then again thats another story.
so... yeah.
why i dont like hanging with rich people.
rich people tend to treat me as their odd job worker.
they might like... ask me to be their ad hoc delivery boy.
i suppose its not that they ask me to.
i mean...
lotsa people do that.
i myself offer.
its the way they ask i suppose.
i dunno.

anyway, rich people always like being in control.
when you hang with rich people you know you'll never get to do what you want.

some days i prefer hanging out with myself.
like when i did the quiet time thing.
it felt kinda good, so maybe i'll do it every once in a while from now on.
it'll give me time to focus.

rime of the ancient mariner- Iron Maiden

Water, water everywhere and all the boards did shrink
Water, water everywhere but nary a drop to drink.

Where's Johnny?

new skin i guess.
like it?
listen to the songs.
i like them.
mostly ska, some ska punk and a bit of punk.

Punkhouse- Screeching weasel.

If you need a place to stay
Welcome to the punk house
It's a party every day
Living in a punk house
Stay awhile and sit and smoke a cigarette
La la la la
Thers's always something happening here
when you're in a punk house
Cheap food and even cheaper beer
Are always in a punk house
Jump up and down, dance on the couch
Stuff a potato in your mouth
La la la
Life goes by way too fast
To spend it working for somebody else
It don't make any sense
If you like it here why don't you stay
Don't wanna work? Well that's O.K.
Cause no-one else here wants to get a real job
Come on down, hang out with us
Hang out at a punk house
Don't mind all the filth and grime and muck
Cause it's just a punk house
Spaghetti stains on the walls
And creepy insects in the halls
We'll have a ball
Young and dirt poor and having fun
And we're never growing up

god i need to get then fuck out of here.

i'm gonna try something. call it a social experiment if you must.
aside from anything work related or other like situations where i have no choice,
i wont talk until friday's end.

i'm kinda sick of talking, in a way.

wish me luck.

Genocidal tendencies- Leftöver Crack
Don't think, just take a look and see
our genocidal tendencies
will get you in the end
you'll be killing your best friend
you think that you're immune
but you will change your tune
it's buried deep inside
your thirst for genocide.

jesus was a hippie.

you know i wish i could drop out of life and into a desert island.
i'd eat what i find there and all.
i'd enjoy it.
and unlike the idiots on lost i'd run around naked all the time.
or at least in a loincloth.

heh.
selwyninaloincloth
selwyninaloincloth
selwyninaloincloth
SELWYNINALOINCLOTH!

now try getting that out of your mind.

anyway, i wish i could be a hippie.
kinda.
turn on my mind.
tune in to music.
drop out of life.

then i wouldnt be getting bull every step of the way.
hell, i could become a hippie.
i already dont bathe that much, have long hair and listen to weird music such as the grateful dead, jimi hendrix and grand funk railroad.
its a start i guess.

look at this btw.


to be honest i dont even mind being vegetarian and all if it meant getting away from all this shit.
there's too much of that in this world already.
we need someone to change the world.
all we need is...

Patience- GnR
all it takes is patience
just a little patience
is all you need

i wonder... how it would feel like to die.
what would it feel like to know that life is slowly slipping away?

i wonder... what it would be like to hang myself.
would it feel like what i think it would?

i wonder... what it would feel like to fly.
to soar above the mortals and feel like a god.

i wonder... how it would like to be deified.
to have millions of people in awe of me.

i wonder... how it would feel like to rot.
to see my own flesh decay and fall off in front of my own eyes.

i wonder... how it would feel like to not bathe for a week.
it would feel strangely surreal. and liberating.

i wonder... what it would feel like to go insane.
that would probably be... the epitome of freedom.
everyone talks about metaphorical freedoms.
yet why dont they believe that the greatest prison is sanity?
the constraints of our mind limit us most.

i wonder... would anyone else find it funny to fly to north korea and eat a fucking awesome meal while watching the peasants starve to death?
what would they look like? what expressions would be on their faces?

i wonder... what it would feel like to kill?
i think it would feel... liberating. and amusing.

anyway, i'm planning to watch this movie called mordum.
who is willing to watch it with me?
preferably some1 squeamish?
its kinda like cannibal holocaust, so william would get a copy.

oh and i'm kinda starting to like cock and ball torture.
still think the lyrics are stupid.
but i like the vocals. they sound like a clogged toilet bowl.
its interesting.

Decency defied- Cannibal Corpse

Torn from your body, removed while you scream
Dissect to collect, my blade now reams
Pieces of flesh lie side by side
Worn on my body or put on display

what if... i was dead and went to heaven.
then i could look down and see everyone, and be at peace.
what if... i died.
would anyone miss me?
what if... i had a purpose in life.
would life really be be different?
what if... i had a million bucks.
would i be better or worse off?
what if... i could go to gigs everyday.
would i be forever happy?
what if... i wasn't a clown?

what if... i was a raindrop.
would it hurt to fall so far?
what if... i was living a simpler life on a desert island?
would it be more fulfilling?
what if... there wasn't a hole in my head?

November Rain- GnR

I know it's hard to keep an open heart
When even friends seem out to harm you
But if you could heal a broken heart
Wouldn't time be out to charm you

...and the motley crue concert was yesterday.
it was fucking amazing.
amazing how i'm always kinda reluctant to pay up and go.
but always feel its worth it.
but... yeah.
it sure fucking was worth it.

it really sucks now its over.
kinda miss it already.
this is fucking shit.
it all is.

Home sweet home- motley crue.

You know I'm a dreamer
But my heart's of gold
I had to run away high
So I wouldn't come home low
Just when things went right
Doesn't mean they're always wrong
Just take this song and you'll never feel
Left all alone

... and i've finished my 2nd attachment.
finished at 10 this morning lah. 10 last night to the morning.
12 hours or so.
everyday.
for about 30 days.
(somebody fucking HELP ME!)

anyway, the 8th was decent. shot from 9 am to midnight.
then joe cooked pepper crab and prawns.
he's a great cook.
he should stop being a gaffer and set up a restaurant instead.
anyway... yep.
pepper crab+beer is great.

today was tiring, but at least its all over.
now i got my money (most of it.)
money wise this's been good for an attachment.
550 for september+ 162 for september.
late night taxi fare covered, food covered.
so i save a lot.
i got around 700 now, they still owe me 162.
motley crue here i come!

(oh and btw heather have you listened to saints of los angeles?)

She Wolf- Megadeth

One look in her lusting eyes
Savage fear in you will rise
Teeth of terror sinking in
The bite of the she-wolf.