i'm now watching bowling for columbine.
strangely, i'm beginning to think that dylan and eric did something that was... not totally wrong.

seriously speaking, if i was... wronged severely in a way i wouldnt say it was wrong to kill those who have wronged me.
in a way that would qualify as self defence, innit?

in a way.
seriously, i've always have had this pipe dream.
its incredibly amusing to think about it.

think about it:
1 day i walk into school.
i set a fire and jam the lifts.
i start a fire and block 1 of the staircases.
i then camp at the staircase lobby, in the stairwell, and mow down people.
dead bodies piling up at the foot of the staircase.
moans of the dying filling the air.

its a shame there isn't an open area in my school i could really corral people into.
it'd be much EASIER, to put it bluntly.
i'd just have to pipe bomb the place and corral all the people in with a weapon.
flamethrower sounds cool.
i could theoretically build 1.
but the petrol cost would be killer.
unless i pre-lace the place with napalm.

i wanna make napalm 1 day.
just for fun.
i could just siphon petrol out of some random car.
napalm=Petrol+styrofoam.
easy, it seems...

seriously, would i rather kill some1 with a gun or a knife?
hell, i wouldnt know.
i havent killed any1 yet.
and i probably wont have free use of a gun anytime.

but from what i've seen in movies (i like movies where people die.)
it seems more fun to kill with a knife.
you get to see, up close and personal, the face of death.
you get to hear their last breath.
they die slowly.
it intrigues me to no end.

now i know i dont listen to the beatles much, but this just seems so appropriate its sheer serendipity.

Happiness is a warm gun- The Beatles.

Happiness is a warm, yes it is...
Gun!
BANG, BANG,
SHOOT, SHOOT,
Well don't ya know that happiness is a warm gun, momma?

i'm now listening to nirvana again.
its an interesting release after listening to too much michael angelo batio.

its just that the raw, primal energy of the music sounds much more... simple.
more down to earth.

instrumental music is often quite snobbish.
its often associated with pure technique without emotion.
thats something often said about shredders like malmsteen and batio.
and of course, occasionally about others such as the entirety of dream theatre and van halen (especially on eruption.)

but yeah, i just downloaded another malmsteen album.
lol.

for these my fave is honestly just covers.
like covers of dream on (done both by batio and malmsteen)
so i can listen to it and compare it with the original.

pure, technical instrumental?
not my taste.
just like losers who go to concerts just to air guitar along ACCURATELY.
you're there to listen and enjoy (and MOSH!!!!)
not to show off how accurate you can air guitar it.

Drain You- Nirvana

With eyes so dilated
I've become your pupil
You've taught me everything
about a poison apple

WATCH THIS!!!



some german guy auditioned for german idol.
singing cannibal corpse.
its bloody cool to see something different for once.
though the judges were bloody impertinent.
making fun of something just because they didnt understand or like it.
its like if some1 acted like a total pansy everytime they heard a chinese pop singer.
.
.
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oh wait. i do.

hammer smashed face- cannibal corpse.

Brutality becomes my appetite
Violence is now a way of life
The sledge my tool to torture
As it pounds down on your forehead

i'd just like to use this post to share some lyrics i like.

"If theres a new way,I'll be the first in line.
But, it better work this time."

Peace Sells- Megadeth

"There was something I forgot to say
I was crying on a Saturday Night"

Saturday Night-The Misfits

"How could this be happening to me
I'm lying when I say, "Trust me"
I can't believe this is true
Trust hurts
Why does trust equal suffering"

Trust- Megadeth

"A Tout Le Monde. (To all the world)
A Tout Mes Amis. (To all my friends.)
Je Vous Aime (I love You All.)
Je Dois Partir (I must leave.)

A Tout Le Monde- Megadeth.

"Live it seems, will fade away
Drifting further every day
Getting lost within myself
Nothing matters no one else
I have lost the will to live
Simply nothing more to give
There is nothing more for me
Need the end to set me free"

Fade To Black- Metallica.

i just like these, k?
and this is dedicated to all my buddies i link to.

guess what?
apparently mikhail's in ngee ann too.

mkhail's a nice guy.
he was from san da a long while ago.
i saw him today and talked a bit with him lah.
and i mean actually talked.

i hate polte conversation.
it stops me from doing stuff i'd rather be doing.
i dont know how to tell people
"fuck off. i haven't spoken to you forever so i don't wanna make meaningless crap talk with you, so fucking let me plug back into my ipod."

when i like talking to some1 it actually shows. so its not that i'm an a-hole or stuff.

but seriously, whats the point?
sometimes its just disturbing me.

anyway, mik's a nice guy.
i hope poly doesnt change him like it changed me.

and han fen if ur wondering who my "friend" in the sms is... its hm. mikhail.

my journey to the stars- burzum.

I Immaterialize
And Slowly Drift
Into the Unknown
With the Cold Winds with Soul
The Wintery Plains Lie Untouched

this is fucking poetry.
(in a suitably emotional voice, and some major double pedal madness!)