my birthday's on wednesday.
2 or 3 more days before i turn 18.
i don't really wanna actually.
another year older.
another year of my life gone.
it'd only be around 12 more to go, i suppose.

i'm feeling really down now.
like the world is gonna end and shit.
i get that fucking feeling a lot nowadays.

i wonder how i'll be spending my birthday.
i remember how i spent it last year.
last year it was fucking awesome.
but then again its not how you spend it.
its who you spend it with.
this year the usual bunch of goondus aren't celebrating my birthday with me.
not until the weekend, that is.
maybe they dont understand how important the date itself is to me.

i wonder who'll be there anyway.
some people i miss.
some people i don't.
i really hope fulin, beng and william are there though.
2 of them i'm closer too.
the last is just a riot to be around.
remember the time i shoved him into the fountain at bugis?

oh yeah. whoever is reading this, dont sms me happy birthday.
my phone's down for another week or so.
yeah... so dont sms me.

my birthday this year is probably not gonna be a happy one.

does any1 believe in birthday wishes?
you know... before you blow out your candles you make a wish?
has any1's ever come true?
mine did once, last year.
probably not gonna come true again this year, but just in case...
what should i wish for?

oh yeah.
i'm thinking of moving my blog.
to jumpinthefire.
i think no1 here understands the reference.
i dont think william understans it either, actually.
he's more new school.
its metallica's first single.
from one of the best thrash albums.
kill 'em all.
yes i downloaded that album.
yes i love it.
yes metallica now disappoints me.

so should i?
.
.
.
*silence*

ah fuck that. i dun feel like talking anymore.
i'm kinda wasting my life.

my favourite song.

Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly lost, this Can t be real
Cannot stand this hell I feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he 's gone